whew.

this is becoming a constant theme: life is so busy lately. i've been doing stuff constantly and i'm getting a little more run-down than i'm used to. i need this fall break so badly. the only problem is that i've got massive amounts of homework to do so that i can be ready for classes next week. it's a little overwhelming.

i decided to do fight song because i don't want to miss out on the opportunity. so far, it's been a lot of fun, my group has the 50's decade as our theme, and our routine is shaping up pretty well. it just eats up a bunch of time. our partners are awesome, and they're fun to hang out with too.

band is chugging along nicely, i'm really looking forward to CoC. it's always been one of my favorite performances and i can't wait. we get to dress up too! :)

my classes are really tough, but i'm doing pretty well in them so far. i'm just scared because my study habits are far from adequate, so i cram a lot right before tests. but since i'm getting good grades, i kinda don't see the need to change, even though i know i should. hmm. but, anyways, i got a 97 on my reallllllly hard renaissance history test, and i was one of 4 people out of 21 to get an A. one of the comments the teacher left on my paper is "excellant, couldn't be better." i was so pleased. on a test in my poli sci class, i got a 104. yeah, that's right, i got higher than 100. woot.

i've got a lot of projects and balls to get rolling to set things in motion over fall break. hopefully this way, i won't have to cram as much and i'll be able to stay caught up even during homecoming madness. managing stress over long periods of time is not exactly my strong point. i'd like to turn a corner with this before things get even more crazy, which they will very soon.

keep me in your prayers for the next little bit, because i've got some health stuff going on that hopefully will turn out to be nothing, but just in case, i've got a couple appointments next week.

time.

 it goes in funny intervals, slowing down, speeding up, always the opposite of what we want it to do.

like this week. i didn't have any major projects, activities, anything really. just regular life, fall '06 style. thing is, i wasn't really aware of what life was going to be like this fall, so i didn't quite know what to expect. and my main conclusion: every day is way too long. from the time i get out of bed to the time i get back into bed is filled with stuff. not always stressful or important, but having things to do for 16 hours a day is tough.

but i guess what i'm trying to say is that i'm glad for every moment of it, crap-filled or not. because at least i'm here. someone i knew and worked with, courtney, recently passed away, and while we weren't best friends, it's still hit me right in my most vulnerable place. "that could have been me." everybody says, oh, that'll never happen to me, i'll never get caught speeding, i'm a good driver, i'm safe, etc. and none of that stuff matters. because it only takes one second to change a life. i mean, i've been there, i know what it's like, and it's totally different on the other side. being thisclose to the end is a physical and instinctual realization that's hard to describe.

you will never be in complete control of everything that happens to you. but you will be in control of how you react to it.

"My graduation date is near. So sad summer is gone. It went way too fast, and I'm not ready to be done."

holy cow.

Currently Listening Back to Basics By Christina Aguilera ain't no other man see related

deep in my heart.

sometimes i wish i could hit the rewind button on my life and go back and fix things, take things out, add things, or even just do something again for fun.          especially this week.

life throws curveballs sometimes, and i'm trying to make the best of it and figure out my place in the scheme of things.

other than that, let's see, what's happened lately...i gave a rockin presentation yesterday. (but i'm glad it's over now) i tried a gin and tonic last night. (ewwww) i burned the new christina cd from my awesome big. (and now it's stuck in my head) i got blisters all over my feet from wearing very cute but uncomfortable shoes 3 days in a row. (it was worth because i looked damn good) i get to go to the ut-florida game. (WHOOOHOOOO! i dont care what you guys say about ut, they play some gooood ball) my nicholas and i have been together 5 months of thursday. (how time flies) i did a little homework. (but for every page i read, i got assigned 3 more today and yesterday. uck) i got a new debit card in the mail. (it's pretty!)

hopefully the pace of things will slow down soon, but if the past is any way to gauge it, i'll be going non-stop til .....probably about... the world explodes. so if you see me stressed out, or even if i'm not, give me a hug, or a smile, or a wave, because right now, the support of my friends and family is the only thing keeping me from going nuts.

--later-- so i found out two incredible things this evening.

first, a girl i worked with at moe's this summer passed away in a car crash this weekend, and i went to the visitation. there are simply no words for this situation.

second, i'm going to europe for 20 days, going to france, germany, england, and spain. woooooot! i'm excited.

doot doot doot.

the first football game was AWESOME. i can't believe we won it, amazing! the band did well.

classes are going ok, just hard, lots of reading and such.

i'm trying to start working out again. whew! no fun. but it'll pay off soon enough.

that's about it.

oh, and i took nick on a picnic. fun. :)